Please help me im not to say addicted but there are times where i would come across it and i seem to be unable to stop my self i keep looking and looking and recently the things im looking for are getting worse and worse it is a kind of curiosity on my part but i know it is wrong and i want to be free of this.

When I was younger about 6 I was introduced to sex by a child about a year older than me she didnt give me full details however she had a game of lay under the cover and take off ur skirt i didnt think it got much further than that and idk if this is relevant but as i progress thru the years i started masterbating which i was able to stop for an exceedingly long period with some short lapses here and there.

I eventually came across porn on tv cinemax and i began watching it as often as i could eventually stopped that now that im grown up and have a computer i find myself researching sex started out for knowledge but turned into watching pornographic material. its not as often as one a month but could be once every two months if i happen to cross it.

I believe that this problem i have is rooted deep since my childhood and that there is probably some demonic possession for it or satanic hold that i myself have not gotten rid of as yet. i also believe that God has a plan for me, i think its been shown to me that i am to be a intercessor however this “addiction” / occasional problem that i have is keeping me back from progressing in my relationship with God. i want to be free, i want not to have to worry about having done something wrong in the eyes of our father i want my lord to be proud of me. i feel dirty and unclean when i watch it bc i know that i am unclean because of it.

I want to be good so i can feel comfortable that i am in the father’s arm. i really need your help please. i acknowledge that this is a sin and i acknowledge that i feel that i need your assistance through your prayer. i want to repent of my sins and be taken back into my father’s arms. and fulfill my destiny.

I’m also afraid that im wearing out God’s patience with me because I have fallen back into it many times will being repentant and trying to stop and actually stopping for a long period of time only to fall back into it. please pray for me.im begging you i dnt want to be like this anymore i need to be free i want to be clean and set free from the clutches of satan so i can run to my lord and stay there in his arms safe and sound.

Please help me .

I am sure we can win this battle my willingness and desire for change and your prayer with jesus anything is possible. God bless you for having this site . thank you so much in advance

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