I need prayers for my sexual addiction or pornography addiction.

It is something I thought I had gotten away from but I guess not I’ve been a christian since 1983 and I married a wonderful women in 1984 and our marriage was good for the first 5 to six yrs.I had anger problems and I was a alcoholic/drug addict.

We have 2 beautiful children who are very committed to serving Christ.But thats not the problem I am,we were together for 16yrs.until she could take no more.We’ve been seperated for almost 10yrs.My marriage fell apart because of my anger,alcoholism/drug addiction,and things she said I lied about to her.Our sexual relations ended because of this and I started to view porn and sexually abuse myself.

I’ve had some problems as to being sexually abused when I was in the military and I was extremely intoxicated when it happened.It has always bothered me and I’ve even gotten counseling for it,but Satan constantly reminds me of it.

I’ve gotten counseling for my anger and alcoholism/drug addiction and God has helped me and taken it away from me.I stopped viewing pornography and have been trying to be very committed to Christ.But recently I’ve looking at it again because of loneliness and depression and then I feel extremely dirty afterwards.

I don’t want to look at this stuff and I hate looking at it.But I’m having a great deal of trouble fighting it,and it is a sin I can’t seem to conquer.I’m asking for prayer and I’m asking for help because when this happens it hurts in my heart and in my spirit.

I live alone and I’m medically retired and I don’t have many friends.My wife doesn’t want anything to do with me,but I don’t beieve in divorce.

I apologize for being long winded and talking about everything in my life but I’m asking for your help with this pornography problem.Thank you for listening.

Please pray for Steven. We all have our strengths and weakness in dealing with Christian sexual addiction. But I just praise the Lord that we can all support each other through the power of prayer.

God Bless

Deacon Pepper

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